I am at this crossroads in my life where I’m not sure where
I am or what I should be doing next. I’m not sure there is a purpose behind my existence.
I feel like I have tons of potential that I cannot tap into. Like I’m stuck into a life I’ve not chosen or envisioned. In the same time I’m not doing
much to change it or get out of this place I am in. And that is more upsetting
than the way I feel.
I know I’m not satisfied with where I am… professionally,
personally and socially. I know there is so much I want to do… so many
different things to the extent that I don’t know what it is exactly that I want
to do. I don’t know where I should start.
I know I want to teach, coach, inspire, do art, be a public
speaker, write more, publish something, travel more... In the same time I want to build a career for myself... I'm driven and ambitious and I want to reach places.
I thought I’d be more independent, carefree and spontaneous. In my head, I lead a different life. Like I have another personality that no one got to see, not even myself. I’m starting to doubt it even exists. Like maybe I have to settle that this is who I really am. But I cannot. I refuse to accept this! And I cannot.
I thought I’d be more independent, carefree and spontaneous. In my head, I lead a different life. Like I have another personality that no one got to see, not even myself. I’m starting to doubt it even exists. Like maybe I have to settle that this is who I really am. But I cannot. I refuse to accept this! And I cannot.
I feel old and it is not about the number. True the fact
that I’m turning 30 soon is making me think about it more… but it is a lot more
than turning 30.
I cannot find my happy place. It is frustrating. And it is
hindering me. In everything… in expressing myself and in excelling. I wake up every
day and I don’t have any passion or excitement. I feel like I'm diagnosed with chronic boredom.
I wake up with no expectations. And I'm always demotivated. Even the things I’m good at… I’ve become okay! Nothing makes my day… no matter how awesome it is! I cannot give anything anymore. Not at work and not to the dearest people to me.
I don’t think I’m successful, I don’t think I’m beautiful…
I wake up with no expectations. And I'm always demotivated. Even the things I’m good at… I’ve become okay! Nothing makes my day… no matter how awesome it is! I cannot give anything anymore. Not at work and not to the dearest people to me.
I don’t think I’m successful, I don’t think I’m beautiful…
But I’m sure I cannot live this way. I look at myself in the
mirror… and this is not the person I want to see. Not the way I talk nor the
way I walk. I’m not happy with my look or how I feel inside. I don’t recognize myself
because this is not at all who I thought I’d be.
I cannot keep on going thinking the best is yet to come. I feel helpless and it pisses me off. I need to change my life, I cannot wait for the change.
I cannot keep on going thinking the best is yet to come. I feel helpless and it pisses me off. I need to change my life, I cannot wait for the change.
I need to figure it out. I need to be able to be happy with
who I am. I can’t find any reason for people to like me, because I don’t like
myself right now. I need to get out of this corner I’m stuck in so I can really
inspire. I know I can. I’m born to shine!
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