You Came Too Late...

"You Came Too Late," is a poem I wrote back in December 12, 2003.... I was going through my book of poems and came across it; I dunno why I'm posting it 8 years later, maybe I liked it, remembered why I wrote it or perhaps reliving the same feelings...

Anyhow... here is how it goes...

When I loved you, I was ready to give up everything...
But you pushed me back, said you didn't need a thing...
The love I offered was so great...
And only for you, was my heart shaped...

But you chose her over me...
You thought she'd love you more than me...
I told you she'll make you cry...
And you thought it was just a lie...

Now she left you and I see tears in your eyes...
You come running to me, but my heart is dry...
You hurt me before, how do you think I'll reopen my door...
You came too late, now I can't be yours...

Torn Between Space...

Some of you might have read this poem before; it's one of the very first poems I ever wrote... I was leaving Saudi Arabia, where I spent 18 years of my life... And I think I'm just missing those days, the people, the place...

Born and lived in a place,
Now I'm heading to a different case,
I'll miss it, thou I hated it,
I won't be able to go back,
As if erased!
But only by name,
Not in the Heart,
All the time spent,
And all the friends made,
Will be a history never replaced,
Left behind,
With my memories as the only trace,
A truth that has to be faced.
Why didn't I live on the land of my race?
Then this day wouldn't come,
When I'll be torn between the space,
A land where my childhood was,
And a land where my future is yet to be placed,
All I can say is that.... I'm Scared!

Sometimes I question if I'm still at this crossroad!

Sometimes I wanna walk around my old street, my old school... it's nice to able to visit old places... and I can't do it... It's as if I'm restricted from my own childhood!

I miss Saudi... Old is truly gold, never replaced!

How I Started Writing....

Well since you are reading my stuff, I think I owe it to you all to tell you how I started writing...

I've always loved reading... I read a lot when I was in school, used to burrow 3 books from the library per week... I really miss our school librarian by the way, she often crosses my mind, and I guess we can call each other friends... lol! Anyway...

So I read a lot, and then in 6th grade we had to read this awesome novel called The Outsiders, by S. E. Hinton... and let me tell u I loved this novel beyond imagination... and I read it over and over and over (I still have a copy and read it till today) and then on my second time reading it, I decided to read that page about the author, the page we often choose to skip and I realized, Hinton had her first book published at 16... and there you go... that was my first motivation....

Being a reader, I had a wide imagination, and there were a lot of stuff I read that I had stored, stuff I read that I wished were written differently, stories I wanted to change their endings, and climaxes that I wanted to emphasize... So... I started writing...

Most of my 6th grade stuff were short and crap to be honest... but I didn't give up... I tried and tried again... and I started writing this story, which I honestly never found a title for until today... and then... in 9th grade, I had an amazing English teacher, which I still remember everyday and hope I can get any contact with her, and she made us write diary entries... which I first thought was really corny and then trust me by the middle of the school year Miss Mais was probably the person who knew my deepest and darkest secrets!

So... I gave her my story to read and she really encouraged me...

And ever since I wrote 2 short stories and a lot of poetry, a habit which I started in 12th grade... but I only write poems when I feel a certain way... more like depressed or confused... anyhow... I write poems...

And most recently, my good friend Salsa started her blog  and that gave me an idea.... so I started paying more attention to blogs, and came across really nice ones, like Single Dad Laughing, and I got even more motivated and inspired!

So these are basically what I've written so far 2 stories and poems...

Sometimes I write diary entries as well... but being the very un-trusting person I am, I tore every entry after writing it, so it wouldn’t fall into anyone’s hands… I have problems feeling exposed! lol!

Anyhow so this is how I started writing.... and this is where I am today :)