The Focal Point Of Our Lives…

I don’t know if this is true for others, applicable across cultures or equally valid for guys… but why is it that I feel our entire life revolves around finding the right partner!

I’m not denying that I’d love to run into the right guy… ‘cause I’d love that!

But why is it taking too much out of our thoughts and feelings?!?

I have no answer for this question… I’m just wondering out loud… so if any of you have suggestions; don’t hesitate to fill me in! But I noticed that whenever we girls get together this issue takes up a lot of our mental space!

We live to visualize what life with that significant other would be like! We create dreams and wait for them to turn into reality...

But the fact that our life revolves around finding the significant others just makes everything else seem like it’s not enough… you don’t enjoy it… like something is always missing!

Maybe I’m wrong… but sometimes I feel I’ve achieved a lot in my life… not a lot as in worldwide, recognized achievements, but I haven’t done so bad and I’m still not satisfied and I still feel finding that significant other might be the element that will complete the picture…

And I wonder, when that significant other is found, when the life partner is there… will I get that feeling of completeness? Will it be worth the wait? Will it really be the beginning of my dream of a perfect life? Or will I have another focal point around which my life exits!

Or is the focal point of our lives… the lack of satisfaction of where we are at the moment and what we have!

Honestly, I really have no clue!

Complexity of Human Emotions...

Sometimes I really wish all people were equal to me... No one was more special than the other, no one was differentiated... No one was more loved or more hated....

And why is that... it's because of the complexity of human emotions... or perhaps it is just my complexity... I really dunno!

But some stuff do make me wonder...

Sometimes we argue with someone and we're completely okay with it; we speak after weeks or months (or we never do) and the whole thing doesn't even bother us... but come to argue the same exact argument with someone else and it's all you can think about and not speaking to them for several hours seems like the worst thing that has ever happened to you...

With other people, things just don't work out well for any random reason... and you really don't care or give 2 hoots; but on the other hand... things don't work out with someone else and you stay for days and nights, months and even years saying what if they had worked out... what if I did things differently, what if I was more patient... what if what if what if...

Sometimes we end things at a bad note with others and we really don't give a crap about how bad we might look to them and what they might think of us... but on the other hand, with someone else you really work hard on proving that you're a good person, you still care what they think although it won't ever work out and deep down you want to go back and change the way things ended...

How come sometimes you feel you were rude to someone (intentionally or unintentionally) and you are okay with it; while others... you beat yourself up for it every time you remember!

How come you give up on some people and it doesn't even cross your mind that you did, but others, you keep wishing everyday you were more patient, you keep telling yourself you didn't give them enough space or time... you keep asking yourself how on Earth did I give up on such a valuable person?

How come it's so easy to tell some people it's over, but others, you're not able to speak the words 'cause you're too scared of losing them?

How come we sometimes don't speak to people for years and then you remember it's their birthday and you quickly pick up the phone and wish them; while others.... no matter how much you want to make the call, you just can't get yourself to do it 'cause "hypothetically," you've moved on...

Actually, how come we sometimes forget the birthdays of our direct family members, but others, whom no longer exist in our lives we still remember their birthday every single year...

Why is it that some people just don't leave any sort of print in your life, but others, when you meet someone with their same name... you get lost for a few minutes in your own world of thoughts and you either frown or smile...

And how come, it easy to tell some people how much you love them, miss them and how life would be hell without them but others... you can't say it 'cause you're trying really hard to hide the fact that you do love them, miss them and that life without them is living hell 'cause you're the only one who knows that to that particular person these words mean differently?

How come some people that were once very close to you, now don't matter anymore and it doesn't bother you, but others, that you might have never really seen before matter so much and you keep wishing you really got to know them better?

How is it that there are people so close to us and we speak to them everyday then all of a sudden we get distant and you accept moving on; but others, letting go seems to be the hardest thing ever?

How come we sometimes see the rationale behind something not working out and the need to end things, but with others... grasping that parting ways is the right thing to do is just beyond your imagination and capabilities?

How come some people walk in and out of our lives and we never look back, but others, you might know the for an hour, a day or a year and they are able to cross your mind every single day as you open your eyes and before you go to sleep.

This list can go on forever really...

Sometimes I wish all people were equal to me... I love caring about people and I love having special people in my life that matter to me... but it has its downfalls too! Sometimes I wish that with all people once things are over and done I don't look back, I don't think twice and I don't say what if... But the point is... they're all people who walked out of our lives... people who took their chances one way or the other and left... things have ended because of you or them... the point is it ended and it's over! So in fact they are equal... but it's the complexity of our emotions that makes it harder from one person to the other...

And I wonder if some people who really do/did matter to me, but things did not work out with them for any reason... am I someone they look back to and remember or was it an easy case to them that they never flash back to... do they ever ask what if?

The only thing I'm sure of is that I really DO NOT want to know the answer to this last question!

When Do Boys Grow Up...

Whoever said boys will be boys is smart!

I could really end my post here! LOL! I’m sure all girls are like Yeah… and the guys… well you all know I’m right! LOL!

So seriously, when do boys ever grow up? NEVER! I don’t think they ever do. They always want someone taking care of them and telling them what to wear and what to eat and where to go...

I mean, girls seem to be more dependent but the truth is, a guy throws everything on the any girl/ woman in his life... he needs to be taken care of like a kid. I won’t deny sometimes it nice to take care of them, but generally speaking, they’ve become more dependent!

Boys… well... they usually do not do jack around the house… they wanna find nice meals, they wanna find their laundry done, they wanna have their clothes ironed… they sometimes dunno where their clothes are… LOL!

When they’re kids… they ask to be fed (actually they always ask to be fed)….

When they’re teens… they complain about their unwashed pair of jeans (again they do that throughout their lives)…

When they’re adults… they get to be the careless and cheesy ones? (I sense my jealousy)

When they’re married… well they play with the kids (that's positive by the way)... but they don’t study for them, or clean them up or help with the dishes. LOL! Sometimes they even ask random questions like where are my socks! Seriously dude?! Why should I know where your socks are!?

They grow older… they want you to make them tea, coffee, remember the soccer matches they wanna watch… LOL!

If you work with them (in class, in uni, at work...) they expect you to be the one in charge, the one who remembers details, the ones who puts things together...

It's endless...

If you have any boy in your life… a kid, a brother, a parent, a classmate, a friend, a boy friend, a husband… whatever he is… he’ll always be the kid… and he’ll always want and "need" to be taken care of! 

The funny part is… they’re in denial… they’re fit for claiming to be MACHOS… they believe that working and being required to make money and provide for a family is the ULTIMATUM... but seriously girls endure more... they handle more pressure, they work harder, they deal with a lot of biological crap, they multitask better and have more expectations to meet than guys...
Also endless :P

Boys can actually go on forever about how much stronger and more responsible they are… well my answer to that is… YEAH RIGHT!

Boys will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS be boys and that just makes me laugh…
The ACTUAL piss off is that… we still can’t live without them! LOL! See… one good thing about you all to end with :P

Again... despite all the above mentioned, there are few exceptions... another good note!