When Do Boys Grow Up...

Whoever said boys will be boys is smart!

I could really end my post here! LOL! I’m sure all girls are like Yeah… and the guys… well you all know I’m right! LOL!

So seriously, when do boys ever grow up? NEVER! I don’t think they ever do. They always want someone taking care of them and telling them what to wear and what to eat and where to go...

I mean, girls seem to be more dependent but the truth is, a guy throws everything on the any girl/ woman in his life... he needs to be taken care of like a kid. I won’t deny sometimes it nice to take care of them, but generally speaking, they’ve become more dependent!

Boys… well... they usually do not do jack around the house… they wanna find nice meals, they wanna find their laundry done, they wanna have their clothes ironed… they sometimes dunno where their clothes are… LOL!

When they’re kids… they ask to be fed (actually they always ask to be fed)….

When they’re teens… they complain about their unwashed pair of jeans (again they do that throughout their lives)…

When they’re adults… they get to be the careless and cheesy ones? (I sense my jealousy)

When they’re married… well they play with the kids (that's positive by the way)... but they don’t study for them, or clean them up or help with the dishes. LOL! Sometimes they even ask random questions like where are my socks! Seriously dude?! Why should I know where your socks are!?

They grow older… they want you to make them tea, coffee, remember the soccer matches they wanna watch… LOL!

If you work with them (in class, in uni, at work...) they expect you to be the one in charge, the one who remembers details, the ones who puts things together...

It's endless...

If you have any boy in your life… a kid, a brother, a parent, a classmate, a friend, a boy friend, a husband… whatever he is… he’ll always be the kid… and he’ll always want and "need" to be taken care of! 

The funny part is… they’re in denial… they’re fit for claiming to be MACHOS… they believe that working and being required to make money and provide for a family is the ULTIMATUM... but seriously girls endure more... they handle more pressure, they work harder, they deal with a lot of biological crap, they multitask better and have more expectations to meet than guys...
Also endless :P

Boys can actually go on forever about how much stronger and more responsible they are… well my answer to that is… YEAH RIGHT!

Boys will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS be boys and that just makes me laugh…
The ACTUAL piss off is that… we still can’t live without them! LOL! See… one good thing about you all to end with :P

Again... despite all the above mentioned, there are few exceptions... another good note!

Disconnect to Connect…

I’ve recently come across the following expression: “Disconnect to Connect”

First on it didn’t make much sense because I feel like I currently can’t live without being connected to:

My 600 something Facebook “friends”

My 200 something MSN contacts

My 80 something What App contacts

My 40 something BBM contacts

Skype, G-Talk, Hotmail, G-mail, Work e-mail, University e-mail, LinkedIn…


Not being digitally connected makes me feel isolated and frustrated… if I don’t have my BB I’m searching for the red light notification everywhere like a manic!

Yet in the same time, as much as I feel connected digitally, it doesn’t mean I’m as connected offline. I might know so much about the people I’m connected to online, but the truth is if I run into them in an offline social gathering I might not have that much to speak to them about… let alone we may pass by each other and be complete strangers!

Who we are online isn’t the same person we are offline… we act differently, we speak differently and interact differently…

Being socially connected online will never replace being social offline. I feel the more connected you are online, the less connected you are offline! It’s an inverse relationship.

So when I think about it… it isolates me more rather than connects! It messes up real and actual social relationships

For instance:

You wish your friends a Happy Birthday online rather than personally…

You talk on bbm / Whats App rather than call...

You create events and invite people electronically…

You chat rather than talk…

You announce BIG news like getting engaged, getting married or being pregnant through a post…

The list can go on…

Being able to talk online or to keep in touch through new technologies doesn’t mean people have real relationships, true friendships or intimacy… unfortunately sometimes!

I’m not denying how valuable technology and new digital networking are… but like anything else… it gives something… and takes away another!

Sometimes we just need to disconnect in order to really connect with one another! We need to unplug…

A.N. Inspiring Character…

We rarely meet interesting and inspiring people… people who grab our attention and effortlessly force us to listen to what they say…

I recently came across such a person! The most inspiring person I came across in a very long time…

A young man who does a great job at making the best out of opportunities that come his way, ambitious, a hard worker who wants to make a difference (and he will), likes to give endlessly to those around him…

Being around him, just pushes you to be better and learn from him... He WANTS you to be better!


He’s very charismatic in nature and talented and gifted in different ways! Confident in himself and smart!

His company is never boring, he has a way of making "nothing" sound interesting!

Very childish, simple & down-to-earth… makes you smile and feel good about yourself :) His simplicity is probably what makes him so special!

Yet very mature… regardless of your age you’d be interested in getting to know him and engaging in a conversation with him! You'd probably even find yourself telling him stuff you don't usually tell people after short encounters... he's the kindda person you'd feel comfortable around!

He’s definitely different than anyone I have come across… and I’m sure he’ll be something GREAT in the future… he’s the kindda guy you trust you’ll hear about in the future…

He's a twenty (almost) year old gentle man, with a distinctive afro, incredible facial expressions, amusing stutter, computer and internet freak, entertaining tweet-er, caring, photographer, passionate about what he does... and a big dreamer!

You’d probably think I’m exaggerating, but you’d need to meet him to believe me…

Ahmed Naguib you are by far the most inspiring person I got to know recently and I’m very glad I did :)

Torn Between Space...

Some of you might have read this poem before; it's one of the very first poems I ever wrote... I was leaving Saudi Arabia, where I spent 18 years of my life... And I think I'm just missing those days, the people, the place...

Born and lived in a place,
Now I'm heading to a different case,
I'll miss it, thou I hated it,
I won't be able to go back,
As if erased!
But only by name,
Not in the Heart,
All the time spent,
And all the friends made,
Will be a history never replaced,
Left behind,
With my memories as the only trace,
A truth that has to be faced.
Why didn't I live on the land of my race?
Then this day wouldn't come,
When I'll be torn between the space,
A land where my childhood was,
And a land where my future is yet to be placed,
All I can say is that.... I'm Scared!

Sometimes I question if I'm still at this crossroad!

Sometimes I wanna walk around my old street, my old school... it's nice to able to visit old places... and I can't do it... It's as if I'm restricted from my own childhood!

I miss Saudi... Old is truly gold, never replaced!

Handling Money is Beyond My Capabilities...

So… I do a terrible job at handling my finances… seriously!

I don’t mind spending at all… I enjoy it… completely… I’m happy buying stuff, it's just where the money goes and what I buy is what's scaring me a lil'!

However, I gotta say that last month I thought let me take a shot at monitoring my expenses... I set up a fancy Excel sheet that would add up my expenses and help me know where I spend the bulk! Apparently there is no bulk!

I’ve always wanted to monitor my expenses. I thought that would make me spend less! It didn’t, it just made me feel bad! I spent a lot! Like shamefully a lot! But at least it helped me realize where all my money goes…

BINGO, I realized it goes over nothing! I spend a lot… and I couldn’t find a big bulky thingy that consumed my money! It’s all tiny bits and pieces of meaningless stuff.

The point is... Insignificant stuff are the stuff that make me happy! It is who I am! I like to treat myself every now and then with something... even if it’s just a new pen, something to hang up in my car, a pair of earrings, a scarf, a notebook, a music CD, candy… Simple stupid make me smile, they make my day...

But the point is… all these insignificant stuff add to up to a significant sum!

I dunno how to save… in three working years in my life I saved less than $3000. Lol! How embarrassing is that! Sadly, aside from the fact that salaries in Egypt stink, it just says how irresponsible I am!

I dunno how to have money and not spend it…

And that is idiotic…

I’m no Barby Girl or Princess (although that wouldn't be a bad change)… like seriously why spend so much! I would rather save up and buy something interesting… like a big valuable thingy… or do something good to mankind! Or I’d rather just save! Nothing wrong with that ever! LOL!

Money handling sucks! I suck at it! And I don’t think it’ll ever change! And I think this is serious problem (DUH)!

Suggestions on solving the problem are highly recommended and welcomed...LOL!

My Idiocy...

I have a certain idiocy which revolves around making myself feel like crap by making the same mistake twice…

Well, the first time it’s not really a mistake… I do something thinking it would turn out well and then it doesn’t… and then times passes by and the same thing starts over and I still do it!

Some people I’ve given them enough chances, some stuff I know they won’t work for me… yet I go back and talk to them again or do it again!

I know something makes me feel like crap… so why the hell do I put myself through the same thing over and over again… I don’t know!

The only smart answer I can come up with is that I am an idiot!

I really wish I’d stop doing that! I think the bigger problem has to do with me being able to tell myself no! A plain and simple NO! How hard is that? UFF!

I mean it’s only idiotic to do same crap over and over again expecting the outcome to be different!

I don’t blame the people… I don’t blame the circumstances! I blame me… I’ve been there and done that… so why do it again! May be deep down I hope things would be different! Only I know it won’t be!

I previously said I trusted my gut feelings… and they failed me massively! So maybe there are certain stuff and certain people I should just give up about! Some things won't change and I need to accept that and deal with it!

Maybe it has to do with my biggest problem ever… my inability to let go! UF UFF UFFF! I’m really angry at me!!!

People should be moving forward! And starting the same stuff over will just put me back to places I’d rather leave and never get back! It's like I'm moving backwards! And that just sucks!

And I hate it 'cause I then end up feeling like crap! And I've had enough of feeling like crap! I've been saturated with crap as a matter of fact!!

My idiocy is killing me!

-sighs-

A Christmas Unlike Any Christmas...

This Christmas was unlike any Christmas; actually the last two Christmases in Egypt were packed with feelings of sadness and grieve...

We as Coptic Christians celebrate Christmas on January 7th, based on the Julian calendar.

Although Christmas is known to be a time of happiness and joy, this time we could not help but mourn for those killed and injured during the most recent terrorist attack that took place in Egypt on New Year's Eve in Saints Church in Alexandria, Egypt.

This Christmas people were not able to be as happy because their hearts were broken and filled with sorrow, Christmas tree lights were off and people could not greet each other because they knew elsewhere in Egypt people were still fighting the shock of the experience they went through, forgetting what it means to smile, people wept in church as they attended Christmas mass.

Perhaps people were not even over the events that took place last Christmas when seven people were killed in a terrorist attack in Church in Naga'a Hamady, Egypt.

Instead of celebrating Christmas, the church, the Pope and the people received condolences for its lost children and sadly had the first year memorial for those we lost the year before...

Yet in spite that all, it is in fact a celebration for the birth of Christ, we tried our best to rejoice, we prayed, we raised our voices to God, all of us with one wish for Christmas... it might have been said different, yet it all revolved around one meaning...

"Lord, please grant us all peace. Please keep us safe in the times to come. Egypt can’t afford more trouble. The people can’t afford more sadness. May all those we lost on New Year and last Christmas rest in peace, let them pray for us as they join You in heaven. Grant their families the patience to deal with their departure. Help those injured get better, give them the strength to move on and to live with the new challenges they have been blessed and destined with. Let this Christmas be a chance for us to move on and for things to get better. Don’t leave us in despair. Let us rejoice. Amen."

Christmas is still Christmas; and although our hearts carry a lot of pain, it's a time of joy, time of love, time for family and friends to get together...

We thank everyone who helped make this Christmas special, who helped make people smile, who helped us feel some joy.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Egypt Weeps...

2011 in Egypt took off roughly...

20 minutes into the New Year a terrorist attack took place in Alexandria, Egypt leaving 21 dead (so far) and over 90 injured…

In fact people's wishes of having "a blast" on New Year's Eve were indeed true... an actual blast came along taking away the lives of many... leaving others wishing they had died because they have to live with the departure of very loved ones, the scare of an unforgettable experience, a scar that would remind them every day with what they've been through, a disability that would change who they are and how they live, a nightmare that would take long or might never leave their sleep...

All those who were in Saints Church in Alexandria, Egypt on January 1, 2011 at 12:20 a.m. will never be the same people again...

An unexplainable terrorist attack that shocked everyone and left everyone hurt and questioning why do innocent people praying in church, welcoming the New Year in peaceful hymns and hopeful prayers for a better year to come would be attacked and brutally murdered

An attack that left people with a feel of insecurity…

An attack that left people questioning what is yet to come…

An attack that is scaring people from going to church and practicing one of their basic rights…

An attack that could lead Egypt to the road of fragmentation…

An attack that has left many people in fear and sorrow...

We in Egypt are all in great despair and sadness as to where we have reached and to the possible impacts of such an attack. We are disappointed, angry and in shock… we are grieving… actually I can’t find the right word to express how we feel… we are mourning our loss of people and where we are today.

I personally send my condolences to all those affected by such an event even if they might not hear it or see it and I personally thank everyone who has shown their support because in one way or the other this event brought people in Egypt closer together because no one would disagree that what has happened is inhumane.

We pray wholeheartedly that this would be the last of such events… we pray for the families of those killed and injured; we pray that they have the strength to live with what happened and what is yet to come...

Yet we envy Alexandria’s Martyrs for they are lucky have died in house of God… They have reunited with God and are praying for us in heaven, assuring us that we will not be forgotten here on earth and that God will not leave His children in despair for long…

I said in my last post we should all start 2011 by, "believing deep down that if you really ask God to make 2011 better for you and to let it go according to His plans rather than yours… it’ll be an amazing year!" We must all rest assured that God will make things better for us.

Let’s all pray for a better, safer, sounder and more peaceful Egypt…

Egypt weeps today but happy tears will come, after all the Lord himself said, “Blessed is Egypt…” (In Isaiah 19:25); we will be blessed; may be not now, not today, not tomorrow... but we will be blessed.





"May all the souls of those who passed away rest in peace and may God grant all those injured and all their families the strength to move on. Amen."